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thewhitelily) wrote2006-08-15 05:57 pm
thewhitelily) wrote2006-08-15 05:57 pm
Does it mean I'm a geek if I'm more excited about reinstalling than writing fic?
So I'm working on bits and pieces of fics all over the place, as I always do, and managing to get exactly nowhere.
My main point of angst at the moment is my Smallville fic, which is actually SO CLOSE TO FINISHED, and SO VERY TOTALLY COOL, except for the tiny little issue of not having a leadup to the climax. I need... one more thing to happen, but what happens is so ephemeral in my mind that I just can't pin it down to paper.
Possibly the main problem is that the idea is directly plagarised from another brilliant Smallville fic, and while no one would notice if I reused ideas cross-fandom (and, indeed, I don't consider such a thing plagarism once it's been adjusted for different characters and situations and relationships - that's just inspiration). But in this fic, it'll just be obvious. And wrong. So... so much for that idea.
Unless I can make it work some other way...
It's that remaining hope that's totally screwing with my muse. Usually this kind of thing sits in my brain as prose until I decide to blat it out, unless it's that reeeaally essential connective bits, in which case it's like pulling teeth, and wisdom teeth at that. But now it's just... like nothing I've ever experienced. I want to work on it constantly, but it's like trying to chase down smoke, because the prose that I can track down either veers completely off the planned plot or exactly follows the course I don't want to, and it's making me want to scream.
Of course, the other fics that I'm working on aren't helping: a hooker!Holly fic that I'm racing Yeti for and haven't even started, an AF/HP crossover where I'm having trouble with the balance between directly retelling a story we all know already and leaving out my favourite parts because they're not changing, an AF exploration of a minor character which refuses to line up in alternating future/past snippets, an A/H novel of nauseating clicheness, and an original that seems to have stalled. Maybe if I could settle to one without being distracted by the prettyness of the others, I could get somewhere, but...
AAARGH!
Also: I've finally managed to get everything I have backed up, and also tracked down my reinstallation CD, so hopefully the trauma of the last nine months and the mess that iTunes made of my poor, poor laptop will soon be over. (Never trust poor punctuation, my friends! There's got to be something wrong with an uncapitalised proper noun!)
But... a reinstall! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! Go me!
In any case, I may be offline for a day or two. Hopefully the reinstall will go quickly and to plan, but if it doesn't... adieu! I shall return... eventually. With a shiny new install that will make my tired little laptop run like a rocket again! *dances at the prospect*
My main point of angst at the moment is my Smallville fic, which is actually SO CLOSE TO FINISHED, and SO VERY TOTALLY COOL, except for the tiny little issue of not having a leadup to the climax. I need... one more thing to happen, but what happens is so ephemeral in my mind that I just can't pin it down to paper.
Possibly the main problem is that the idea is directly plagarised from another brilliant Smallville fic, and while no one would notice if I reused ideas cross-fandom (and, indeed, I don't consider such a thing plagarism once it's been adjusted for different characters and situations and relationships - that's just inspiration). But in this fic, it'll just be obvious. And wrong. So... so much for that idea.
It's that remaining hope that's totally screwing with my muse. Usually this kind of thing sits in my brain as prose until I decide to blat it out, unless it's that reeeaally essential connective bits, in which case it's like pulling teeth, and wisdom teeth at that. But now it's just... like nothing I've ever experienced. I want to work on it constantly, but it's like trying to chase down smoke, because the prose that I can track down either veers completely off the planned plot or exactly follows the course I don't want to, and it's making me want to scream.
Of course, the other fics that I'm working on aren't helping: a hooker!Holly fic that I'm racing Yeti for and haven't even started, an AF/HP crossover where I'm having trouble with the balance between directly retelling a story we all know already and leaving out my favourite parts because they're not changing, an AF exploration of a minor character which refuses to line up in alternating future/past snippets, an A/H novel of nauseating clicheness, and an original that seems to have stalled. Maybe if I could settle to one without being distracted by the prettyness of the others, I could get somewhere, but...
AAARGH!
Also: I've finally managed to get everything I have backed up, and also tracked down my reinstallation CD, so hopefully the trauma of the last nine months and the mess that iTunes made of my poor, poor laptop will soon be over. (Never trust poor punctuation, my friends! There's got to be something wrong with an uncapitalised proper noun!)
But... a reinstall! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! Go me!
In any case, I may be offline for a day or two. Hopefully the reinstall will go quickly and to plan, but if it doesn't... adieu! I shall return... eventually. With a shiny new install that will make my tired little laptop run like a rocket again! *dances at the prospect*
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