Anxiety

[thewhitelily]

Is a bastard.

Am having an attack.  I know I'm being an idiot over something and overreacting.  So, I reach down inside and I go *squelch* to those emotions, because they're not logical.  

Has this ever gone well, in any story ever?

No.  But I don't want to feel them.  Why would I, nasty things that they are, all overwhelming and confusing and pointless and spinning and unreasonable and illogical and yuck inside my chest.  And my mind's strong enough to squash them.  So squash them I do.

Oh look, more emotions.  

*squelches*

God, I'm lucky fan_flashworks is due in a few days, because I'm going to have to woman up and stop squelching by then or I won't be able to write anything.  

Fucking emotions.

*squelch*

Comments

[smallhobbit]

Not sure there's anyway I could help, but happy to bring bucket and mop.

[thewhitelily]

Mop and bucket always welcome, thank you. *hugs*

[ancientreader]

Fellow anxious person, I feel your pain! Has the squelching diminished at all since you posted?

[thewhitelily]

Mmmm, a bit, thank you. Getting to the bottom of it I think, and there's more stuff I hadn't considered behind it which makes me feel better about the emotional overreaction. Still, always a yucky day when I'm trying to catch all the instinctive squelches and unsquelch them again to look for what the emotion was. :/